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New Pages, New Start - New Fresh

 "2024 !!!"..., 

Some of you may thinks it's like a wonderful years or ordinary one, but for me it's the years of transition. It was the lowest part of my life story. Many things in that time feels like roller coaster of life, a lot of tears, cry, negative thoughts and negative vibes at the end of the year.

The turning point of the author life. Changing the naive to realistic mindset about life, realtionship and love. Already violently crushed and broken with the broken heart event.
Destroyed by the expectation that 13 years of relationship will be last forever by the holy of the marriage to the point where the relationship can't works due to of betrayed. (Sorry it's too dramatic). Actually the author faild to get married because she got cheated by her Ex. 

But on that years, Author also love her self more and she realized that she loved by God. She experienced God protection through blessing her with that bad events.
It's not the end of the story. Quite the opposite, it's just a new begining. The fresh start and new story. 

Let the author tell the story about her travel and treats, her thoughts, and her spiritual journey, and yeah..., enjoy the story !!!

ciao!!!



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